These weeks I had thoughts about what should I do with my life after ...

and the truth is that since I was a kid I wanted to become a stewardess and going at the University of Geography. I will be supposed to act like a different person and to speak in public (which I am bad. hope I will handle this in the near future).
But all my life I just wanted to be myself and people seeing that it is not pink everything in my life. I also have fears and ups and downs.
My ex-boyfriend told me that a librarian is a work for rats and I believed him (incredible human). I want to express my moods by writing what I see around me. I love to write and to compose but I am afraid that if somebody got too close to me, they might actually find out the truth that I am sloppy.

Well, for starters, I will apply to the Language College and hope I will succeed. Thank you for encouraging me, writer.